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Sepanx!

I really thought this is going to be easy.

I know letting go and saying good byes aren't my forte but with all the experiences i have been through, i thought i can get through this easily.

But no.

The teary and tantrum-filled goodbyes really broke my heart and been longing for understanding and looking for strategies how we can cope with this situation.



They say separation anxiety are only for babies. I can imagine how we've never matured in this aspect, or should i say, we've been really attached to one another and we are having a hard time being separated. I can imagine.

We were both afraid of-

  • losing each other (even though we knew that we are just a text or a phone call away)
  • being separated physically because we've been stick together for so long and we can't remember how it is to be alone or at least with someone else
  • not meeting again because of conflict of time and schedule

These are fears - FALSE EXPECTATIONS APPEARING REAL.
See, our fears, ain't true. We both know this is not the end of the world between us and surely, we'll see each other again. This is going to be a start of a new beginning between us and more stories to share.

It's hard dealing with separation anxiety on a day-to-day basis knowing how attached (in a major major way) we are to each other but as I look at the future, i know things are going to be better.

Hang in there, baby, everything will be alright.

I miss you.

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