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Musings #3

    Na-miss ko magsulat and there are a lot of things going through my mind lately.
 
  • Will I achieve 8 of 8 critical metrics this month?
  • How will I ever manage to pass all BPMS requirements considering I have to do a lot of pull outs for training and coaching and I want to make sure that my agents are well abreast - since because I want 8 of 8 achieved? 
  • BCP, again? Yeah, Dec 4th and it's a client mandate. No choice. 
  • IIAR, KCO Testing, Audit, Audit, Audit. 
  • Will I finally get promoted? 
  • What was the purpose of me staying in AU where all of them left already and all I get is blame and dissatisfaction of what has happened and what I have done. I feel so ineffective when these happen and lost about my goal. 
  • What was my goal, in the first place?

I lost it. 

I exactly remember back in September last year, when I was setting goal for myself, I kept on saying, my goal is to meet someone I can be with, prolly not for the rest of my life, but someone I can talk to and someone I can hang out with. 

And remember those slum notes we kept on passing around year on year? (as if answers change when we were asked, "what is love?" and "who is your crush?") I keep on saying "I just want someone I can talk to and someone I can hang out with. 

I wonder and keep on thinking if indeed, that's what I want. Not a promotion. I am not sure. Still exploring. One thing for sure though, despite that I feel a bit sad about all 8 Managers leaving AU for their own reasons, I am happy for them and I wish them all the best with their endeavors in life. I look forward to going to work everyday, because I want to know how's Micah (Carrie's daughter), find out what happened to Eileen and Ron, how's Tet coping with all her learnings, how's Lei's adjusting with her new Apprentice role, what's in Jam's mind today, what's Qtie and Recca's ulam, Kris' love story, and all other thoughts that my team can share. I look forward to every single day.

I am excited to go to work everyday because I look forward to seeing Jacob after shift, have dinner, coffee, or what not, share stuff and plans together, and stories together. 


Sweet.



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